I’ve trashed my home,
I confess, I’m a hoarder,
Full of dusty memories,
I’m not a good boarder.
I’ve trashed my body,
By drinking, until drunk,
By taking bad drugs,
And eating food junk.
I’ve trashed my life,
And broken a nice family,
And hurt the kind wife—
Who gave me a chance.
So if you talk to me,
And all you hear is the noise,
It’s because…
There’s trash in my brain,
Shutting up a sweet voice.
I’ve trashed my heart,
And the reason I hurt,
Is because…
I’m waiting for a caregiver,
To sweep out the dirt.
By: ElRoy © 2017
The Miracle Morning for Addiction Recovery: Letting Go of Who You’ve Been for Who You Can Become
Notes: The addict remembers the positive experiences associated with the drug or activity, and in times of stress this motivates the individual to take the substance or repeat the behavior. Ironically, his family remembers the negative experiences, the suffering, and the fear that the abuse will never stop.
“You often hear that pot leads to harder drugs. But I think alcohol is what leads you to everything, because it takes away the fear. The worst drug experimentation, I ever did was because I was drunk, and didn’t care.” By: Chris Cornell, Frontman for the Soundgarden Rock Band (1964-2017)
Addicts want something after they have ceased liking it, even if they realize it’s harmful effects. Addicts tell their doctors: “I hate this drug and it doesn’t even give me much of a high anymore. It is just that somehow it seems like I can’t be without it. And I keep hoping that my next high will be a good one, like my mind remembers, it was in the beginning!”
The brain is tricking the addict. The reason the high was so good in the beginning, was because it was medicine for whatever illness was afflicting the subject (stress, anxiety, depression). Now he has a different condition (addiction) and consequently a different therapy is required.
