I had a thought,
That came to my mind.
Why it stayed,
I don’t know.

It caused me distress,
And gave me no rest,
For it refused to go.

It was a prideful thought.
And I feared,
I might commit the deed,
It represented in my mind.

And still it lingers on.
Where it came from,
I’m not sure.
But I suspect,
It came from those,
Deep recesses in my mind.

It must’ve happened,
That one time,
I sank so low.

How I survived it,
I don’t recall.
But I must’ve been rescued,
And then revived.

By: ElRoyPoet © 2019

What to do if your inner vice is cruel

Chronic worrying is not permanent. It’s a mental habit that can be broken. You can train your brain to look at life from a different perspective. “Chronic worriers show an increased incidence of coronary problems and suppressed immune functioning. Dwelling on the past or the future also takes us away from the present, rendering us unable to complete the work currently on our plates. If you ask ruminators how they are feeling, none will say “happy.” Most feel miserable.” Says Nicholas Petrie, Center for Creative Leadership.
“Find a constructive way of processing any worries or negative thoughts—write your thoughts down in a journal every night before bed or first thing in the morning—they don’t have to be in any order. Do a ‘brain dump’ of everything on your mind onto the page. Sometimes that can afford a sense of relief.” Recommends Honey Langcaster-James, Psychologist.

“All human activity is prompted by desire. There is a wholly fallacious theory advanced by some earnest moralists to the effect that it is possible to resist desire in the interests of duty and moral principle. I say this is fallacious, not because no man ever acts from a sense of duty, but because duty has no hold on him unless he desires to be dutiful. If you wish to know what men will do, you must know not only, or principally, their material circumstances, but rather the whole system of their desires with their relative strengths.” Excerpt from The Four Desires Driving All Human Behavior

“Many painters are afraid of the blank canvas, but the blank canvas ‘is afraid’ of the truly passionate painter who dares—and who has once broken the spell of ‘you can’t’. Life itself likewise always turns towards one, an infinitely meaningless, discouraging, dispiriting blank side on which there is nothing, any more than on a blank canvas. But however meaningless and vain, however dead life appears, the man of faith, of energy, of warmth, and who knows something, doesn’t let himself be fobbed off like that. He steps in and does something, and hangs on to that, in short, breaks, ‘violates’.” Excerpt from Vincent van Gogh on Fear, Taking Risks, and How Making Inspired Mistakes Moves Us Forward

Commentary: Rumination is a thought processing disorder meaning that worrisome thoughts or even neutral thoughts are given excessive analysis by the host. As you may already suspect, rumination is actually quite common in both anxiety and depression. Similarly, it is also typically present in other mental health conditions such as phobias, Generalized Anxiety Disorder (GAD), Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (OCD), and Post-traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD).

“Ignorance breeds fear. We fear those things we don’t understand. If we don’t put a lid on that fear and keep that fear in check, that fear in turn will breed hatred because we hate those things that frighten us. “If we don’t keep that hatred in check, that hatred in turn will breed destruction.” By: Daryl Davis

“When a man cannot introspectively confront his negative thoughts and emotions, he will always be conquered by them, communicating without composure and hurting all those whom he loves.” Quote paraphrased from “Battle Cry” By: Jason Wilson

“You already know enough. So do I. It is not knowledge we lack. What is missing is the courage to understand what we know and to draw conclusions.” By: Sven Lindqvist

“Beware of those who weep with realization, for they have realized nothing.” By: Carlos Casteñeda

“Pride goes before destruction and an arrogant spirit before the fall.” Bible, Proverbs 16:18

“For the wages of sin is death, but the free gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord.” Romans 6:23

“The Lord Himself goes before you and will be with you; He will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.” Bible, Deuteronomy 31:8

“These things I have spoken to you, that in Me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation; but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world.” John 16:33

“For just as rain and snow fall from heaven and do not return without watering the earth, making it bud and sprout, and providing seed to sow and food to eat, so My Word that proceeds from My Mouth will not return to Me void, but it will accomplish what I please, and it will prosper where I send it.” Isaiah 55:10-11

Listen to Cain—Rise Up

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